People change

People can change just in a split second. i've always wanted to trust someone whole-heartedly but when i do, they made some 'thing(s)' that had made my trust towards them waver. be it family or friends. i guess, i loss my sense of judgement. i used to judge alot and people had made me change to not being judgemental but look, what happens when i don't. i'm standing at a crosspath. i've been trying very hard not to be judgemental and try hard to treasure every relationships i had with people around me but some just treat it like trash. they need you, they'll look for you. but when they don't they'll ignore you like you never existed.

At times i feel regretful sharing my thoughts on certain issues or someone who in the end become someone who'll open their big mouth and tell it off just because they've already hit it off with that someone. what did PAPA call this person? two-headed snake. . .worse off sharing secret with them, when tehy should not be trusted in the first place.

:::UNPLEASANT:::
When you said something that's unpleasent to their ears, they'll sulk the whole day and when they did the same and you sulk, they'll call you: S-E-N-S-I-T-I-V-E. . .

:::JEALOUSY:::
Why do people get jealous over a small matter? be it over ranks or branded stuffs. what God gave, is what we receive. HE is fair. people at times says "life is unfair". but in actual fact, it is something that is called 'obstacle'.
everyone can't run away from jealousy, i am jealous at people with a caring dad that cares about them. at times i feel sad too, looking at people who don't seem to treasure their dads just because they has yet to feel the pain of loss.

Smurfs had once said that he believed one day things will be better for him as he had gone through all the hardships. i agree with him. things will be better for people who works hard. you may not see the results now but one day you'll get to see the light.

:::FAN-GIRLING:::
You can call me KPO for liking the same idol as you be it whoever like the idols first or what, there are alot of others who like them 1st and we are all fans. it's nothing to be called KPO in the 1st place. we introduce nice music to one another. whichever is your preference or mine, it can be the same or may not be. it's individual choice. at times in a coincidence, its the same. but you can't blame someone for the things they like.

I am thankful to Charmaine for introducing Big Bang to me and my sis for introducing SS501. not to forget BEAST, FT Island (especially Hong Ki), U-Kiss and CN Blue.

:::TRUE FRIENDS:::
What are the (should i say) criteria for someone to be called a true friend of yours? maybe a lifetime friend? should they be going through weals and woes together before they can be considered one? i really am considering what makes a true friend. i'm not sure i have that many in my mind. but i know the good ones are the one that stay by your side when you're in need.

Is this how things should be?

remember: smile alwaez:)
things will get better if you keep striving!