Stop messing in my life...

Yesterday 02/07/08 wednesday
today, i got to know from lia that kakY is bitching about me. i'm just unsure of what was or were my fault/s that she has to bitch about me to lia. when i kept thinking about it in every aspects, i just couldn't find the mistakes. what have i done??? please lah, i'm a student i'm stress enough in school. if she was unhappy about whatever happen 2weeks ago, she really is someone i don't expect her to be. someone who holds grudges and are damn unreasonable. she bitched about me to lia maybe about what happen between me and her when i was working last saturday... i don't disturb her life in any way and i don't even harm her... why must she find fault with me??? why me? i'm sorry to say this lia, but i really can't hold on anymore. i don't blame you for whatever happen between me and kakY but you are the one that she should find fault with... but why me...?i it doesn't make any sense. since you haven't tell me the truth of what she told you about me, this is my conclusion... evil? yes it is. maybe due to my stress... i'm really really sorry. didn't mean to hurt anyone's feeling. seriously, this whole game is childish. she want to mess and play games with me go ahead... i can't be bothered anymore. whether or not lia want to tell me the truth i don't mind anymore. this whole thing is just way way crazy and out of hand. let nature takes its course.

When i told my mum about what happen, she told me to ignoore and still befriend with kakY and respect her. she's the elder. i know but the big question now is what is my mistake that she has to go bitching about me??? this thing, i really hope won't get in my way to study...

Today, i just got my maths result. and it is F-antastic. when i didn't heard my name and the grade, i knew it liao. i knew right from the start when i touch the paper. it was as if mr khor had just stab me with a scalpel. deep and hard. it was sooo painful that i almost want to cry. i've always told myself to be strong. i don't want to fail and i really hope that i pass and scrape through my year 1... it is sooo stressful just like taking my O'lvl. and now to make things worse, people at my workplace didn't even help me for once by giving me a peace of mind. what do you guys want??? i'm sick and tired of thinking about this whole ridiculous game.

I can joke and laugh around but please i'm still a young girl who is still trying to build a wall to defence herself. emotionally and physically. do you know how glad and happy i am when i know that my off days for this week is approved. at least i can avoid my problem for another week since i can't solve it on the spot.

that's all for now.
i don't need your sympathy but in any way that i've hurt someone's feeling, i'm really really sorry.
remember: smile alwaez :)