I'm sad enough...don't piss me.

Today i got my CT results. it can be described as badly done...but what can i do? what's done can't be undone. anyway these are my results:
Econs - A
FCul(elective) - B
PhChem - C+
InChem - C
Microbio - D
Maths - F
IntFSc - F

So now's my mission is to study hard and get a better results in the coming 4weeks exam...OPPS!!! did i just said 4weeks??? MY GOD it's that near...buck up nabilah...go go go.

My opinion on the results i achieve is that i'm sad especially for IntFSc...i expected to get higher at least an E. as you realise i don't aim high as i know where i stand in my class. i'm not the top nor the lowest...anyway when Amir got 4Fs i'm actually glad that my results aren't that bad but when i speak out my opinion to Fiza, she thought i'm happy for someoone's miserable result...how can she... at times when people hurt my feelings i kept it and laugh it out... no point in taking those words to heart but i can't stand it today... i'm sad enough and there are still people who actually rub that wound. Fiza once told me that my InChem would be better thann hers as she said that i'm good at it... Ta-da!!! false hope. i got lower than her... sad? nope but disappointed that she gave me a false hope.

Today in religious class my teacher enlighten me with:
" I'm not suppose to be disappointed with GOD for whatever results that i failed to achieve... as we disappoint HIM more than what we can coount..."

it's true what she says...i should accept my results and i accept it readily but what i can't accept is that someone says i must buck up on my Fs and D. but she herself isn't...


OMG!!!i just realise my words are becoming harsher and harsher...no nabilah...N-O NO!!! don't be a bad girl don't cahnge for the worse... don't let the people around you affect your mood and feelings. you know yourself better honey...GO GO GO!!! NABILAH CAN DO IT!!!

that's all for now.
remember: smile alwaez

PS: about tomorrow i'll leave everything to God's hand. heck care liao arrrrr...

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