Don't make me give up on you!

Sometimes, when i see her using the laptop to watch video, i feel a sudden urge of anger. i don't know why...maybe it's because i am disappointed in her for not studying. i don't want to keep saying it out. i've had enough of it. my exams are coming up in the next 2 weeks. if i were to keep bothering about her studies, then who will keep track of me?
if it's not me myself??? true? maybe?

i just don't want to give up. i want to try my best...never fail in what i do. even if i do fail, i hope that i've put in my 100%...if not, then i won't admit defeat. pls pls pls don't make me give up. i don't want to be naggy and cause a fight. i know her too well. i feel that i really have known who she is all these years, but at times i don't understand what she wants. i do love her and that's the reason why i don't want her to be like me. maybe some of you don't get it about what i am saying now. but one day, one day you might. one day...

i know she needs to use the laptop to check her homework but at times, i just want her to change that habit of hers. to watch video or reading fanfics. i know that she needs to rest too but she can rest like, 45mins of nap or doing some other things that she is confident of not getting addicted like watching video.

i don't know what else to say but i believe that i'm not addicted to any video or tv shows anymore. if i have the mood, i'll watch but if i don't, i let it be just like that. i don't forcee myself to watch. but i'm trying to force myself to study A-maths and understand the basic. i really want to pass my maths as well as physical chemistry. these 2 are the ones that i am very weak at.


peace to my family.amin.

that's all for now.
remember: smile alwaez :)