bAd dAy!!!

Growing up is tough by itself...but going through the challenges laid out to us is much more harder to ignore than to pass it. time goes by, people are catching up with it...On 1st June when i report to work after a day of absence, i got to know my schedule for the month...i'm not complaining but SHARING. my schedule is sooo hectic and worse still, i've got exam right after my 2-wks holiday. what is this? challenge? i guess so...God laid out challenges for us so that we can be strong...that's what i think...HE won't challenge us out of our abiliity...

With this challenges, i am who i am right now...i'm strong and i am able to go through all my emotional thinking calmly...i don't really complain. but if i do, it shows that i can't take any tolerance on that matter anymore. i have a high tolerance. I'm not boasting but it's a fact. i manage to live my life to what i have right now. making everyone happy although i may be the least happy. but by giving happiness to others, it lights up my day.

Enough of the philosophical talk. Today i had a bad day inn school. though it's the second last day in school but it's aiyah!!! during my practical, somme other groups screwed up. can't blame them. people have their weaknesses and strenghts. remember that!!! i do have lots of flaws too. lots that all the fingers i have isn't enough. teacher was behaving sooo......hmmm........attacking people all of a sudden. not in proper attire for lab lar, never tie hair lar...all those minor things...but she as a teacher herself never shows good example. her dress did noot cover her ankles, her hair was not tied...what was that supposed to mean? like the malay saying say: like a crab teaching her child to walk straight.

my god...worse come to worst...in maths tutorial, everyone were busy talking among themselves...and the ones suffers are people like me as our teacher sulk, wrote the answer on the board and leaves the class. i was sooo angry that i almost cried but i managed to control it. as you know, i didn't take A-maths in sec sch, so there i am lost in the world of equations. even from the answers he gave, i can't understand a single thing. so i packed up and leaves the class to print out notes and went home. day after day it's getting worse. i'm going to hate maths and my poly life soon. I CAN'T FAIL MY MODULE OR WORSE STILL REPEAT MY YEAR. i didn't come from a rich family. i've my difficulties. in 2yrs time, no one knows what's going to happen. my mum told me things that i wouldn't want to discuss on my blog. let me keep it to myself. i believ i can be a girl i used to be. the quiet and innocent girl. knows how to take care of herself and not worrying her mom one single day.

maybe i've start to think maturely about my life and my future. believ in myself is my one biggest thing that i believe besides HIM.

my advice here is to give and take. you'll be happier that way and being tolerannce towards others, you won't lose a thing but you gain a point.

Quotes to share:
Going through hurdles, make you stronger physically and mentally.
It is better to go through it than to ignore it.

that's all for now.
remember: smile alwaez :)